The Unicorn Momma
Blogging about life as a Unicorn Momma. It's fun, it's glittery, and it's definitely different...
Friday, March 25, 2016
what is the deal?!
Thursday, March 3, 2016
Three's Company...
To help you understand why I was crying over the sink, I wanted to tell you about the day I saw the teeny baby growing in my belly. Tuesday, March 1st was the first day I saw my little baby wiggle its teeny legs and watch its bitty heart pump. I had just found out we were pregnant not even a week and a half before this appointment. When I took the test, I was in denial that I really WAS pregnant! When the midwife measured the baby she said I was probably about 13 weeks along. To be 100% sure, she sent me to an advanced sonogram place that same day. We drove the three minutes to the next appointment and the girls had passed out, so Cade said he'd just drive around with them while I went in. I walked in and was seen right away. I laid down on the chair and pulled up my shirt, the tech tucked the towel into the waist of my jeans and gooped up my belly. The ultra sound popped up and there it was, clearer than the other ultrasound, my little baby. Hand over its face and looking a little bugged that we were messing with it. I saw its brain, the two hemispheres, its heart beating again, and watched arms and legs wiggle around. The tech asked if I'd like to know the gender as she can tell with about 75% assurance, and I said yes. "?MALE" was typed onto the picture and there were definitely little boy parts there. I immediately fell in love. Even more in love than when I first saw him. I was on such a high afterwards, I didn't really think about all the things that come with a new baby...
I think it all just hit me in that moment. I was going to have THREE CHILDREN!!!! WHAT?!?!?! I am already a hot mess, late to everything, it takes me ALL morning to get ready, and we just don't have anything together... so... how the heck am I supposed to keep three kids alive, and myself?? I was overwhelmed and worried and it called for an ugly cry. After the crying, I felt better, and after watching Georgia devour her banana treat and grin at me, I felt A LOT better. I was able to go see a movie with my friend later that night and it was nice to have fun and not worry about anything.
I'm scared to come off as ungrateful or like I didn't want this or like WE didn't want this. We are so excited and so grateful, we were just so shocked to be blessed with this little baby at this time in our life. They always say, "If you wait till the best time, that time will never come," so we just skipped the waiting ;) Thank you for reading and for your love and support!! XOXO britt
Friday, September 25, 2015
Better Late, Than Never
It all started at 39 weeks... I started laboring after being on my feet all day in Eufaula. I was hurting pretty good but my contractions were never steady, so I went to bed that night and it all stopped. During the following week, I would have times where I would labor and then it would stop, labor and then stop...I was getting frustrated. When I went in for my doctor's appointment, I asked not to be checked. When I was constantly checked with Georgia, I often felt like a failure because I wasn't progressing...and her birth just goes to show that what I was dilated to didn't mean a thing.. So, 40 weeks came. I was a little discouraged, wishing we could see those sweet chubby cheeks already! I wanted so bad to just hold her already! We went to church that Sunday and my friend mentioned giving me a pressure point massage on my legs and feet using essential oils, I was like, "uh, yes please!" haha she came over later that evening and I got the best foot massage of my life! I started to have contractions that night, but again, nothing serious.. I went on about my day on Monday, running around with my mom, grabbing lunch, you know, just doing whatever because I wasn't about to have this baby any time soon... So that night I went to bed having contractions. They got a little more intense, so I decided to diffuse a little Clary Sage while I slept (Clary Sage is an oil that is said to help with contractions..) I started to get uncomfortable at about 3AM. I turned off my diffuser because, not gonna lie, I got a little scared haha! Well, at about 4, I went into the guest room where my mom was staying and told her how I was feeling. The contractions were still inconsistent and I was still talking and everything so she stayed up with me while I labored through a few more contractions in the living room. At one point I started to cry (THIS WAS ME ENTERING THE TRANSITION PHASE.. little did I know) I mean, I was sobbing. I started to feel bad for having another baby so close to Georgia, like it was unfair for her because we hadn't given her enough time with just us. I thought she would be mad because I was leaving and the next time she would see me I would have another baby! I worried that I wouldn't love Lucy right away because how could I love another baby as much as I loved Georgia?? It was an emotional time..At about 530 I texted my doula and said I basically needed an evaluation.. One of my doulas, the amazing Stephanie, was at my house at around 6. Georgia woke up, she ate some muffins for breakfast, my mom got ready, and got Georgia ready. Georgia wasn't happy about Stephanie touching me, so when we decided to try a different position to try and move Lucy around, off my back, Georgia ran to my head. She looked worried but I looked at her while I was having a contraction and just told her everything was going to be okay. I looked into her eyes and I just felt so much love for her! It was a beautiful moment I was able to have with her before my water broke and things got crazy.. and they did. I got up to go put on some clothes and gather the last of my things/ wake up Cade. I guess I never really had that sense of urgency so he kinda took his time getting ready.. it wasn't his fault! I was staying calm like I had been taught! The contractions started to really hurt at this point. It was time to GO! We all headed for the door, and got everything ready and waited for a little bit on Cade ;) haha He came out of the hall and we were all staring at him and were like, "LET'S GO!!" haha We piled in the car and dropped of Georgia at my friends house. I had a little guilty feeling as Sydney held her and we drove away... but this baby was coming so I kinda had to get over it. We drove as fast as we could, only ran one red light, and made it to the hospital. We walked in and headed straight for Labor and Delivery. I honestly was having an out of body experience, it was like my spirit couldn't handle it, so it just left my body and watched as I labored down the hallways and in the elevator. I don't remember how I felt, but I really can see my face! It is the weirdest thing, looking back on it now! When we got to Labor and Delivery, the nurses were asking, "Were we expecting you? When is your due date? Who is your doctor?" And I really wanted to say, "Does it look like I have time to answer your stupid questions??" But I didn't. Stephanie told them to get me a room now, unless they wanted to be delivering a baby in the hall.. They got me a room. I started taking off my clothes as soon as we walked in. My mom was putting my gown on me, I was just somewhere, not there, somewhere in thought or something... Like I said, seriously, out of body experience happening.. I crawled onto the bed where the nurses kept trying to poke at me and check me and this and that and I was starting to get scared. I was in and out of my body now, like moments that I was looking at the faces around me, and moments where I was watching myself. And then, the doctor came in. He asked me how I was, I said, "scared." I genuinely was. I had fear, fear of the unknown, of the pain, of the baby coming out and doing everything she needed to, fear that I would not be able to do it, fear that I was not enough to give birth to this human. My spirit rejoined my body. I was laying on my side, and I was pushing that baby out. I didn't really listen when the doulas were telling me about how the baby goes back in....soooo when that happened, it was not happening again. I wanted it out. It was as though I had entered some sort of "survival mode" and I didn't even think of Lucy as a baby, there was this thing in my body and it was hurting me and it needed to come out, now! So I pushed again (this was like the second push, because, no retracting...) and out came Lucy! I remember three things: Cade's hand on me, my mom pulling her leg up in sympathetic pain, and looking at Stephanie and her saying, "You can do this, Brittany." It was seriously amazing when they put our Lucy Lady on my chest!
I will have to say, I did feel like the devil was trying to come out of me. Like for reals, I made any one else giving birth that day want to cross their legs and leave because it sounded like someone was exercising the demons out of me. But at the end of the day, it really was a beautiful thing. I am so happy Lucy came into the world the way she did. I am also so happy Georgia came into the world the way she did, they are different, but they were both exactly what I wanted! As I look back, I realize that with each of pregnancies, I have taken on the spirit of the little one growing inside me. With Georgia, there was a definite Diva, but one that was sensitive to the world, one that wanted things a certain way, but also wanted others to be happy. With Lucy, I felt such a sweetness about her, like a softness and happiness, a spirit that was close to nature and close to things that were joyful. I have been so blessed to carry these two girls of mine to full term, to the time in which they were ready to make their grand entrance. I cannot believe I have two amazing daughters of God that I get to raise and watch learn and grow!! I hope you found love and happiness in Lucy's birth story! We truly love the little sweetie that she is! Thank you for reading!! XOXO
Monday, August 31, 2015
Lettuce Ketchup
Monday, August 3, 2015
It's not you, it's me
Tuesday, June 23, 2015
Clean Up on Aisle 6...
Finally, we make it to the yogurt and cheese, which marks the end of our journey, but remember, I wanted some fresh flowers, so back to the front of the store we go! I was determined. We pick some hydrangeas and head to the checkout. WE MADE IT!! AND EVERYONE IS ALIVE!! However, you might find my mind wandering around on its own, because I certainly lost it somewhere in the grocery store...
SO, Brittany, have you ever been traumatized by a trip to the grocery store?? Yes, Yes I have. The Unicorn Momma will one day return to the grocery store, until then, we will be dining out..Thanks for reading! Hope you had at least one good laugh ;)
Monday, April 13, 2015
I think my heart might burst..
Today, as I was watching a webinar thing/cleaning the kitchen, Georgia ran around pouring out toys, standing in her little grocery cart, and dancing/singing to a Frozen wand that plays "Let It Go" that my mom brought her this weekend. She was busy, I was busy, and we were just doin our things. Then she started to get sleepy, she was rubbing her eyes and started to whine about wanting marshmallows, or how she says it, "lellows". I picked her up and sat her on top of my belly, housing little sister. As I swayed back and forth, I noticed her arms start to go limp and realized she had fallen asleep. This hasn't happened in a while so I, of course, took it all in and just kissed her little neck and rubbed her sweet little back. I had to document it so I snapped a picture with the self-timer on my phone... when I looked at myself holding my little girl propped up on top of my belly, I couldn't help but just about burst out in hysterical crying.. It hadn't yet completely hit me that Georgia would not be the only center of my universe once Lucy came into our lives. Georgia made me a momma. She changed me in more ways then I could have ever imagined, and she still continues to make me a better person every day. I didn't know how much I could love another human being until I had her, and now I will be sharing that love with another little baby. I've already started to love Lucy and her sweet little movements in my belly. She gets the hiccups and tries to come out through my belly button. In a moment, it just hit me, I will have two babies, two loves, two girls, two daughters... It was a feeling of excitement and worry and just everything all at once!
I am so grateful that God has given us these babies and I am so excited to meet the newest member of our family. I can't help but recognize our Heavenly Father's hand in our lives as we prepare to expand our family. I feel so blessed to be able to house this little baby, just as I carried Georgia. I already can't imagine life without either of these sweet girls. When Georgia was born, I really didn't think my heart could be filled with any more love, but now I know, it can, and it feels like my heart might burst, but it is the most amazing feeling I've ever had! I am excited for the adventures to come with our sweet little girls, and excited to see what life will bring us as we continue to expand our little family. :)Thanks for reading! I hope you have a fantastically sparkly day filled with lots and lots of love :)