Being "The Change"

Last year, for my birthday, I made a list of things I'd like to accomplish, and that really helped me to focus on what I wanted to work on. So this year, I have decided that I want to "Be The Change I Want To See..." in everything I do.

I was telling my mom, "I just want the world to be rainbows and butterflies!" As unrealistic this is, I can at least try to be more positive and loving in my life now. Here are some things I'd like to change:

1. "Feed" my spiritual self. Lately, I have a feeling that my spiritual self is skinny, mini. Unfortunately, I have been so caught up in everything going on around me, that I haven't taken care of my "soul" (I guess). I feel like it is missing in my life, and I know the reasons why, so... I have to be the change. I plan to read something uplifting daily, whether it is a scripture, a conference talk, or something from the Ensign. I feel like telling myself that I need to read the scriptures just sets me up for failure, so I decided to branch out and try this for a while. I plan to pray, on my knees, daily. In the morning, at night, or both, I will get on my knees and pray to my Father in Heaven. I rely to heavily on my "flesh" self, and not at all on the Lord. I was reminded this past weekend of the sacrifice that He made for me, and I just wanted to smack myself upside the head...HE DID THIS FOR ME!! Why would He come to the earth, suffer and die for me? So I can just ignore it and trust in myself and my own knowledge? UH, no. So, I want to rely on my Savior. I plan to make the time to prepare myself for taking sacrament each Sunday. If I am going to partake of the sacrament, and promise to "take His name upon me" then I really need to be doing that! I need to know what I believe and be able to live it.

2. LOVE! Oh my goodness. I take what I have for granted SO often and not only do I forget to love others, but I don't recognize when others are showing love. I want others to know that I am a disciple of Christ, that I follow Him, and that I love Him. I plan to say "Thank You" and be more grateful for others in my life. I plan to recognize when others are showing love, and to respond with love in return. I don't want to do this to be "better" than anyone else, or be this high and mighty person, but I genuinely want the Love in my life.

3. Turn it off. Just turn it all off. While Cade has been away, I have had time to reflect on our relationship and how we interact lately. We literally can sit on our phones, not saying two words to each other, for hours. I can't believe that is where we are right now, but it is. I plan to just put my phone away when Cade comes home. (Obviously, if I'm receiving a phone call or something, I will answer it, but I'm talking about facebook, IG, Pinterest...etc, etc.) Also, when we moved to Fort Rucker, we put a TV in our bedroom because for a few weeks the only place we had to sit down was our bed. Now that we have a living room, the TV will be removed from the bedroom. I don't know where it's going to go, I'll probably sell it, but it is getting a new home.

4. GET ON A SCHEDULE! I am the world's worst when it comes to this, honestly, I can't make it on time to anything, and when I get there I am normally frazzled. It has made me so crazy, but I have realized that I want that to change. I want to respect the time of others and really try to be where I need to be, when I need to be there. Being on a schedule is also proving beneficial with Georgia. Before, I just kinda did what I felt like she was wanting, and I've come to the harsh reality, that a baby does not know what it wants. Period. (HAHA) SO (I kinda sorta get to check this one off my list...) I got Georgia and I on a schedule!! Oh yeah! I wanted to do this too, so that I could get up and make a good, healthy, balanced, breakfast for my family. I realize there will be good days and bad, but I want to try. I want to put forth the effort, because to me, this is important.

With all of these things, there will be challenges, and I know I want to change other things, but this seems manageable at the time being. I have other things that I will be doing to "be the change" I want to see in myself and the world around me. I want to get rid of the negativity, the competition, and the other feelings that come with those. I feel like, by trying to do these things I've decided to work on, I can squash some of that. I am not the best at this blogging thing, but this has definitely helped me to focus and really quiet the constant ongoings in my head... I'm kind "cray cray" in case, you didn't already know. ;)

Have a wonderful day! Thanks for reading!! I love you all!! Let's "BE THE CHANGE" (it's okay, you can be cheesy, like me) XOXO - Britt