My Heart, Christ's Home

Hello everyone! This morning I went to PWOC which is a group for women that is focused on Christ and becoming a more Christian woman. I have been taking this study called, "Becoming a Woman of Prayer" and have been loving it! It talks about having more intentional prayer with our Heavenly Father and Savior, and I have really enjoyed it. I wanted to talk about the program that the group put on today though. It was really inspiring for me. I feel that as I get older, I want more and more to become more like Christ, and really let Him into my life. I have always been religious and have always recognized the significance of living a Christ Led life, but I haven't really done anything about it. Like, maybe the small things I'm doing are enough... but in reality, it's not. There are so many missed opportunities throughout my day that I could really dedicate to my Savior and doing the things HE would have me do. This program today talked about letting Christ into our "home" and how would we feel as He entered each room and as He lived with us daily. Would I feel embarrassed by the books that I read, the movies that I had in my collection, the music playing, the time I spent on the computer...pinterest... the little things that I have "hidden", or the work (or lack thereof) that I am doing for Him? It really made me think about the time I spend during a day and what time I am actually spending doing the Lord's will. How much am I doing that is led by self-satisfaction or by bad habits or whatever the case may be? What things do I "keep hidden" from the Lord, that I do not give it ALL to Him?

I have really been trying to be more open to the promptings of my Savior and as I do so, I feel that I am happier and more fulfilled. I see the opportunities He gives me and now I need to work. I love that we can go to Him for anything because, even when we think He doesn't know what is going on, He really does, and He truly cares. On Sunday, I was reminded of the pain and suffering Jesus Christ went through in the Garden of Gethsemane. How he bled from EVERY pore, and was in such pain and agony, all so I could make my own choices. All so I could choose to follow Him or choose to do my own thing. (And when I choose to do my own thing, how quickly I am reminded that I need Him, and He is there) He suffered all that because He cares. I was also reminded of our Heavenly Father, and what it must have been like to watch His Beloved Son suffer that pain and not just remove it from Him! That again shows the love of our Heavenly Father and that as much as He wants to take away those times of trial, we need them, and like every good parent, He allows us to have those trials so that we can come out of them stronger. I feel that now I really need to go to work. I really need to give it ALL to Him and intentionally use my day to glorify my Heavenly Father and my Savior.

I believe there are so many ways we can do this, and some ways that I am going to try is one of the hardest things for me, and that is setting aside time to read my scriptures! How can my spiritual self be fed if I am not "feasting" on His words?? Another thing that I have already started working on is having more intentional prayer and conversation with God and Christ. How can I really be doing the things the Lord would have me do, if I don't even recognize His voice?? I have started to listen to more uplifting music when I am doing things like cleaning the house or driving because when I do, I notice a change of pace in my home. It goes from chaos to more calm and more peaceful. It has been a good time for me to really listen to the words, reflect on them and when I sing them, I feel like I am closer to my Savior. When I am closer to Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ, I am more able to control my attitude, how I react when something annoying or bad happens, and how I treat my husband and my babies. Maybe as I get older I start to see the potential I have and want to live up to that potential. Like one of the primary songs from church says, "I want to be the BEST I can, to live with God again.." I truly want to be the best I can. I want Christ to come into my heart AND home and feel comfortable dwelling there, knowing that my life is based on His teachings and His example.

Thank you for reading! I know this post was more spiritually glittered than my others have been, but I am just having those thoughts like, "What am I really doing with my day-to-day life? What am I really allowing into my life? How am I trying to be a better person, a better wife and a better mother?" SO all the things I have been focused on, that have really become my passions, have really started to help me become more self-aware and more intentional every day. I hope you have a fabulous day!! Thanks again!! :)